Tuesday, December 16, 2008.
Sometimes when we look back at what we thought were the happy moments of our lives, we begin to realise that all were nothing but a show. A staged performance rehearsed in the dark, lines memorised so well, actions so synchronised. So much so that it takes one quite some time to realised that he's just part of the show. One starts to wonder if the word 'trust' ever had a genuine meaning in it, or is 'trust' just yet another lie.
Just when you thought there is a wall for you to fall back on, the wall fell on you. Time and again, you tried to decieve yourself from the face of reality. You turned your eyes away from the direct glare of truth. You tell yourself just the opposite of what your heart is telling you. Nevertheless, man always have this intelligence, this ever strong sense of instinct that is so accurate. You know, and thus, your heart never lies. No question asked, you know the trust were being taken for granted, you know the role you played were minimal, almost insignificant. You know they can do without you, in fact, you know they do not need you.
When you see the enthusiasm towards others, but not you. When you see the initiatives towards others, but not you. You know it's time. It's time to quietly retreat yourself into the corner, and you won't be surprised, that they don't even realise. That's when you know, it's time to go.
虽然还是搞不清楚状况，找不到原因，得不到答案．不过却很确定的感觉到，自己根本不属于你们的世界．也很确定的感觉到，你们并不是我唯一拥有的世界．对自己好一点，过得快乐些．
"Colourful" World, "Colourful" Life
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